Wednesday, May 21, 2008
Rejection stings but hope...
“No, I just don’t think this will ever sell. Maybe if you rewrite it as a Women’s Christian Living book, Robbie. And no, you are not ready for me to be your agent.”
I glanced down to see my ego in pieces on the floor. Little jagged bits of dreams surrounded my feet.
“Thank you for meeting with me.”
I arose and shook her hand and left.
The bathroom downstairs would do perfectly for a cry.
Rejection hurts. No matter who you are and how strong a character or faith in God you might have, the wounds of rejection can make a bee’s sting feel like a sweet kiss.
I cried. I ran into three gals from my writing group who all helped me get perspective. Thank you Heather, Michelle and Diane. Jan and Loretta offered soothing words later.
And that’s the antidote for rejection. Perspective and truth. In my case, rejection came with lies. Not from the agent. She gave me her honest opinion and I completely appreciate that with no ill will. But the Enemy was hovering, too, waiting to follow up her comments with some of his own.
“See, Robbie. You can’t write. You are following a hopeless path here. Just give up.”
Earlier that morning I’d sat at God’s feet with a cup of Starbucks in my hand and talked to Him about the possibility of rejection. I had fortified my heart and mind with His truth.
So even amidst the tears and emotions pouring out of my heart, my mind recited the truth of His words.
“Preserve me O Lord, for in You I put my trust.” Psalm 16:1
“I have loved you with an everlasting love. Therefore with loving kindness I will draw you.” Jeremiah 31:3
“You are priceless to me. I love you and honor you.” Isaiah 43:4
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart. Lean not on your own understanding.”
With the gals giving me loving perspective, and God’s words hugging me with His acceptance, the sting began to diminish. Courage came back.
I met with eight professionals, all of which had somewhat differing opinions. Five of them looked at me and said no. It hurt, but not so much as the first rejection from the agent.
But did you do the math? Three said yes.
In the writing world of conferences, yes means send me your full proposal and then we will see. So rejection still looms. It is part of being a writer. I have received at least 50 letters or emails in the past year and a half saying, “No thank you.”
But perspective – I am in this for the long haul because I am called to write and I really LOVE to write – and truth – God accepts me and never rejects me and I am good enough, smart enough and doggone it, people like me :0) - allow me to wipe away the tears and walk back to my computer.
Any great adventure includes discomfort and pain. But oh my, the joy that goes with risk is truly wonderful!
Rejection stings…but hope soothes.
Get the bunny! (I am referring to my post on April 23 :0) )