Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Ubuiquitous Enemy, Ubiquitous Fear
I’m writing a book about how to become a courageous mom and raise courageous children. I’m about 22,000 words into it. After I clear 25-30 thousand, I will work on diligently :0) finishing the proposal.
So it is a good project. A fulfilling project. But at times, a very difficult project.
I’ve been writing so much about fear that I seem to battling it more than usual these days. For about ten years, my life was filled with fear. Honest to goodness panic attacks in the middle of the night were common. Most of my terror was focused on something bad happening to my son. If you looked up “overprotective mother” on the internet, you would see a picture of me.
But God has given me tremendous victory in this area. In fact, my life has never been more peaceful. That is, until I started writing about fear.
It’s not that surprising. The enemy is after me. But God has provided weapons for me and I am a warrior woman! (I can almost hear Helen Reddy’s “I am Woman, Hear me Roar!” :0))
Don’t you love 2 Corinthians 10:4?
“The weapons we fight with are not like the world’s weapons. On the contrary, they have divine power in order to DEMOLISH strongholds!”
When I am attacked I use my weapons – praise, prayer, the Word of God and gratitude. Afterward, sometimes not immediately, I can almost sense the beeping noise one of those bulldozers makes when it backs up. Beep, beep, beep! And then CRUSH! God demolishes the fear and His courage fills me up.
The other day John, Noah and I were sitting in church and I put my arm around Noah and my hand on John’s knee. In that moment I was filled with gratitude. Here I sat physically touching my two most precious blessings.
And then Wham-o! Fear came whispering a few “What ifs?”
In church! Can you believe it? About that time the worship team starting singing and it was easy to praise God for His presence and His truth.
We each have those moments, don’t we? The enemy attacks us with fear no matter what setting. Join me and arm yourselves. Be ready to stand firm in battle.
And then wait for it. Wait for it….
Beep, beep, beep! CRUSH!!