Who simply won't walk away.
The comfort of what is "normal"
is easier that the pain of change.
I've scoffed at them and thought,
"Come on! Have some self respect.
Choose to run away and get out.
Choose to value who you are."
And yet...
I'm in an abusive relationship.
I've made so many excuses
to not completely walk away.
The comfort of what is "normal"
is easier than the pain of change.
So today I leave.
Today I value who I am.
He's beaten me up and contributed
to my morbid obese unhealthy self.
No more.
I've taken sugar and perverted it.
Made it an idol in my life.
Sugar isn't bad in itself.
I think God created chocolate
with a smile on His face.
But I've given it too much power,
I've allowed it to control my pain,
and celebrate my joy
and comfort my boredom.
No more.
I choose to get out of this relationship.
Someday, after sanity returns and I'm
at a healthy weight, maybe I'll allow
a tiny space for a dessert in moderation.
But for now, for a long while,
I say goodbye.
Good riddance. I'll miss you desperately at first.
With time and God's strength you'll become of little importance.
Goodbye my love who I allow to abuse me.
Goodbye Sugar.
4 comments:
Robbie,
I am on a similar journey. I'm having to say goodbye to all milk products. This is really difficult for me. I don't even know what to eat anymore. Milk is one thing, but I love cheese. Please pray for me, as I pray for you.
Love you,
Jan
I will pray for you, friend! :0) Through Jesus, we can do this!
Robbie, I so know what you are talking about!! When I get off of sugar I do so much better. But it's like someone who struggles with alcohol on and off up and down. I'm off right now. Sigh Thank you for your post, thank you for honesty and courage to share! Love you!
Tonya, so good to hear from you. I MISS YOUR Face! :0) And talking to you. Please pray for me and I will pray for you on this journey of saying NO! to what is not good for us and YES! to what is!
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